Music stimulates within us direct experience of expanded reality.

Do you ever just feel like a loser? Ever just wish something about your life was different? Boy, oh boy do I right now. I'm sitting around my aprtment eating and getting fat... wishing I had friends to hang out with. Since I got out of school for the summer I went to Nashville with my family and went to Pennsylvania with my family. Other than that I've took my dogs to the dog park and sat around trying to find something... anything to do. Maybe I just feel this way because I'm used  to being a busy bee....but I just feel so worthless. I feel fat and lazy and worthless... I don't have anything to do to fill my time and every time I try to find someone to keep my company.... it never happens. Anyway, enough of my sob story... nothing really has gone on these past few days... I still haven't practiced. Even though I've obviously had a lot of time on my hands it's hard to do when you don't have a stand to hold your music. I've even resorted to stapleing my music to the wall.. haha. But as I've said before I have been filling out applications to colleges, even though they aren't due for a while I figured why not get a jump start on essays and stuff like that. So I've pretty much finished all the info stuff on all of them, just essays are left. Some are harder than others but none of them seem impossible like Berklee did. I think a formal audition will do me good though, and I'm glad I'm going to get another shot at a school in Boston. Well.. that's all I really have to say for now. So until next time, live wtih no regrets.